Saturday, August 22, 2009
August 22nd 2009
I usually don't post during the weekend. Hopeful it will be a good weekend. Ash said the sweetest thing tonight during the movie. I haven't dyed my hair in two months so my grey is coming back in at the temples. I don't have it all over just right there in the front. Anyway I part my hair on the side these days and he saw the patch of white at the part of my hair line and was going on and on about how pretty it was. Hmmm well I don't think it is pretty, but it sure is nice to live with someone who thinks everything about me is pretty. In his eyes I have not grown old. Just better with age. He has a lot of faults, but adoring me isn't one of them. He thinks my fat is in the right places and when I loose weight he likes that too. No matter what kind of haircut I get he loves it. Well he came up to go to bed so I best get off here.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
August 19th 2009
First day back in college for the Fall. I woke up at the break of dawn and started doing school. I don't like Children's Lit. The book is boring. I loved my summer class even though it was a rough class. The book in that class was very interesting. I think I signed up for the wrong class. I am hoping it gets better.
We watched a great family movie last night, Hanna Montana. She goes back to Tennessee for two weeks and finds herself. I just loved the mountains in the movie. Tennessee was the place where I found love for the first time in my life. Tennessee is where I met my husband and started our life together. Tennessee was where I was brokenhearted and had to learn to move on with life. Tennessee was where I went to college, finished high school, made the commitment to follow God and live a Godly life, Tennessee was where I sowed my teenage oats. Not many oats being I was a "good girl". Tennessee was where I feel in love with nature, learned to ride a motorcycle, buried my brother (he died on his 26th birthday) I was about to turn 25 when he died. Tennessee was where I had my first child (c-section). I really don't consider it given birth. I have never given birth to a child. I had my three girls ripped out of me my a doctor. Tennessee was were I buried my dad, were I learned what it was like to miss someone when you move away from them. Tennessee was were I had my first wreck, were I made friends with my life long girl friend. Where I had my first kiss stole from me by the boy next door (not a good fellow). Tennessee was probably where most of my firsts were at. The things I most hold dear happened to me in Tennessee. So the movie had a lot of meaning for me.
We can't live in yesterday, would we really want to do that. It is best to think of those things and then bury them again to maybe pull back out at another time. Somethings a person doesn't really care to think about. I had a lot of bad times in Tennessee too. I had an abusive dad, not many high school friends, I almost lost my husband a few days after my brother died. He got shot by accident and almost died. I was lonely in high school and in college. I had trouble making friends and was shy. I had a lot of boyfriends. I dated most of them for between 2 weeks and 2 years. I dated them until I decided they were not the one. My husband must of saw the pattern and asked me to marry him two weeks after we started dating. Guess he was afraid I would dump him too. I told him no and he waited a few weeks and asked me again. I of course said yes and 8 months later we were married. I have never regretted marring him, unless we are in the mist of a fight. When who doesn't regret. He knows me better then anyone else. He knows my faults my likes my dislikes my desires. My goals and my heartaches. It really isn't a good idea to dwell on bad things (dad beating all of us, belittling us and making our life a living nightmare). We cant go back and redo our mistakes we make in life. All we can do is press on. Most of my bad things in my teen years was done to me so reliving them or going back wouldn't help being I wasn't the one doing them.
I have tried most of my life to put the past behind me and move on. I don't want it to sour my life. I will strive to remember the good things in my past and cherish them. Cherish the people that made my life happy and move on. Yes, I can ramble... This is my blog and I can ramble if I want to.
Well the boys are ready to start school so I best go. Later when I have time I want to tell my adoption story.
Rose (my favorite flower)
We watched a great family movie last night, Hanna Montana. She goes back to Tennessee for two weeks and finds herself. I just loved the mountains in the movie. Tennessee was the place where I found love for the first time in my life. Tennessee is where I met my husband and started our life together. Tennessee was where I was brokenhearted and had to learn to move on with life. Tennessee was where I went to college, finished high school, made the commitment to follow God and live a Godly life, Tennessee was where I sowed my teenage oats. Not many oats being I was a "good girl". Tennessee was where I feel in love with nature, learned to ride a motorcycle, buried my brother (he died on his 26th birthday) I was about to turn 25 when he died. Tennessee was where I had my first child (c-section). I really don't consider it given birth. I have never given birth to a child. I had my three girls ripped out of me my a doctor. Tennessee was were I buried my dad, were I learned what it was like to miss someone when you move away from them. Tennessee was were I had my first wreck, were I made friends with my life long girl friend. Where I had my first kiss stole from me by the boy next door (not a good fellow). Tennessee was probably where most of my firsts were at. The things I most hold dear happened to me in Tennessee. So the movie had a lot of meaning for me.
We can't live in yesterday, would we really want to do that. It is best to think of those things and then bury them again to maybe pull back out at another time. Somethings a person doesn't really care to think about. I had a lot of bad times in Tennessee too. I had an abusive dad, not many high school friends, I almost lost my husband a few days after my brother died. He got shot by accident and almost died. I was lonely in high school and in college. I had trouble making friends and was shy. I had a lot of boyfriends. I dated most of them for between 2 weeks and 2 years. I dated them until I decided they were not the one. My husband must of saw the pattern and asked me to marry him two weeks after we started dating. Guess he was afraid I would dump him too. I told him no and he waited a few weeks and asked me again. I of course said yes and 8 months later we were married. I have never regretted marring him, unless we are in the mist of a fight. When who doesn't regret. He knows me better then anyone else. He knows my faults my likes my dislikes my desires. My goals and my heartaches. It really isn't a good idea to dwell on bad things (dad beating all of us, belittling us and making our life a living nightmare). We cant go back and redo our mistakes we make in life. All we can do is press on. Most of my bad things in my teen years was done to me so reliving them or going back wouldn't help being I wasn't the one doing them.
I have tried most of my life to put the past behind me and move on. I don't want it to sour my life. I will strive to remember the good things in my past and cherish them. Cherish the people that made my life happy and move on. Yes, I can ramble... This is my blog and I can ramble if I want to.
Well the boys are ready to start school so I best go. Later when I have time I want to tell my adoption story.
Rose (my favorite flower)
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
August 18th 2009
Tonight we are going to work on the floor. We took all the carpet out and prepared the floor. We have to repair some boards in the floor. We are getting close to laying the laminate.
I went back to college last semester. I am taking an interdisciple in Education and Bible. I start my first day of fall semester tomorrow. I am so busy with school for the boys not sure how I am going to fit in my own classes. I have 40 hours to go. After this semester it will be 34 hours. Close to being in my last year of college. I dropped out of college when I had a 1 year old and decided it was just too much. It is easier in someways now that I am older, but harder in other ways. I guess I will just plug along until I finish one day.
Homeschool went pretty good today. My youngest son is learning to please us instead of himself. We were having a lot of trouble getting him to do what we wanted, instead of what he wanted to do. In school you have to obey and do the needful. I was ready to throw in the towel. So glad he decided to do right. My oldest son always wants to do what we want. He isn't able to do it sometimes, but his heart is in the right place. The baby needs to learn to walk. Not sure how to make that happen. She is 15 months and she just doesn't care about it. I spent a good bit of time today walking her around holding her hands. She has been sick for the last few days. I am not sure if it is something she ate or not. I removed some of the new things and she seems to be doing better.
I need to go make supper. I think it will be chili. I love it and Ash hates it. For hating it he sure eats enough. He always goes back and gets seconds. Arg....
Ash had been exercising pretty often though. I need to get back to doing that too. I had a bladder infection and then I hurt my back side somehow. I pulled a muscle in my upper leg/bottom. Ash rubbed me down with what we call blue stuff and after a few of those rubdowns the pain went away. After that I haven't wanted to over do it.
Ok, I will go cook now.
I went back to college last semester. I am taking an interdisciple in Education and Bible. I start my first day of fall semester tomorrow. I am so busy with school for the boys not sure how I am going to fit in my own classes. I have 40 hours to go. After this semester it will be 34 hours. Close to being in my last year of college. I dropped out of college when I had a 1 year old and decided it was just too much. It is easier in someways now that I am older, but harder in other ways. I guess I will just plug along until I finish one day.
Homeschool went pretty good today. My youngest son is learning to please us instead of himself. We were having a lot of trouble getting him to do what we wanted, instead of what he wanted to do. In school you have to obey and do the needful. I was ready to throw in the towel. So glad he decided to do right. My oldest son always wants to do what we want. He isn't able to do it sometimes, but his heart is in the right place. The baby needs to learn to walk. Not sure how to make that happen. She is 15 months and she just doesn't care about it. I spent a good bit of time today walking her around holding her hands. She has been sick for the last few days. I am not sure if it is something she ate or not. I removed some of the new things and she seems to be doing better.
I need to go make supper. I think it will be chili. I love it and Ash hates it. For hating it he sure eats enough. He always goes back and gets seconds. Arg....
Ash had been exercising pretty often though. I need to get back to doing that too. I had a bladder infection and then I hurt my back side somehow. I pulled a muscle in my upper leg/bottom. Ash rubbed me down with what we call blue stuff and after a few of those rubdowns the pain went away. After that I haven't wanted to over do it.
Ok, I will go cook now.
August 18th 2009
More on me.....I am a foster parent. I only foster babies. My best friends that I turn to when I need comfort or have great news are my daughters. We were close when they were growing up, but when they became adults the nature of our relationship changed to friends instead of parenting them. I am sure I still give advice, but I don't control their lives. I try to stay out of their personal business.
I am a Grandma to two children ages 2 and 1. The oldest is a girl named Apple blossom, the youngest boy Birch (Birch tree).
I have one Foster child called Forget-me-not.
I am a Grandma to two children ages 2 and 1. The oldest is a girl named Apple blossom, the youngest boy Birch (Birch tree).
I have one Foster child called Forget-me-not.
August 18th 2009
A little about me. I am an older mom with 6 children. We have three grown bio children and three young adopted children. My three oldest are girls are 26, 23, 21 years old. My three youngest are 7, 5 years old and 1 years old. I have been married for 27 years to the same man. I am a Christian mom with a Christian husband. I homeschool my children. My oldest girls turned out great and homeschooling them was the best gift I could have given them. I am not much of a writer, but I enjoy getting the thought out of my head and onto paper. It is a good release. I like to random blog, so if you read this it will be just whatever is going on in my life. My real name isn't Rose and my children don't have the names I will use in my blog either. I want to protect them so hence the made up names. The oldest daughter will be called Azalea, the second one Buttercup, the third one will be Camellia and the fourth will be fairy fluff . The boys names will be Dove (Dove tree) for the oldest and for the youngest Elm (Elm tree). Hubby will be Ash (for the Ash tree). I named them where you can tell who I am talking about in alphabetical order. We also have 6 grandchildren, but when this post was made we only had two. I had to edit this post to add our newest daughter. She was adopted in September of 2010.
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